Well, where do I start? I was inspired yesterday to write this, alot. I did alot of thinking at work, and wanted to come home and write a big long thing about love and life, but then I did some other stuff, so now I am sort of forcing myself to write it, or else I will never do it.

     Love, to me is... well... I have no idea. It is something that I think I feel when I meet that "special girl" ya know? But the problem is that the "special girl" is not very special, because I seem to find alot of those "special girls" around. It seems like every week I have a new crush, there is one that I have had for awhile, and I am working on it, but I just dont think it will ever work out. Am I a quitter? Yes. Am I a pessimest? Yes.

     All I really want in life is this: a person to care about me as much as I am willing to care about them. I dont want to sound too egotistical, but I think I would be a great boyfriend! I have no idea why I think this, but maybe it is because I would do anything for a person who thought that well about me.

     Well, we are getting off track. Let me regress. A friend of mine when asked about love said that it was "weird and special". My god, what a good response!! Love is very weird, very screwed up, but it is the most special thing in the world.

     Oh okay, well wot do I think about love? Well like I said before, I dont really know. Every time I think I am in love, I am sadly mistaken, and I end up hurting people. Then my views of love are changed. It kinda sucks. The worst part is that I think I am in love all the time! Well, I am getting better! I am starting to realize when I am getting crushes now, and I am starting to realize they are just crushes, and wont amount to anything. Am I pessimistic? Yeah.

     [Cut out the other crap]

     HEY this is supposed to be about life and love, not me whining about school and trends. Fork! Okay..

     Let me talk about crushes for a sec. Wot exactly is a crush? I think it is this feeling that a person gets when they are obsessed over another person. I am obsessive. I admit it. I dont know why I get like that, it is really wacko and I dont really LIKE it, but...

     There is this girl that I have a crush on, and have had a crush on since my last crush, which is quite awhile. I dont know wot exactly I see in her. She is good looking, and is funny and nice (at least thats wot I think). I am sad, though, because I dont see it EVER working out between us. I dont know why either... but I just dont. Oh well... there is this other girl I kinda like too, but I think she has a b/f. That really sucks. Why do I like two girls? Cuz I suck. That sucks too.

     I think I'm going to end this for now. I'll prolly add some more stuff later.

     Hi Anna and Travis and anyone else who asked if they could be in this.